Life has been a little hectic lately..

I want to complain.
I just signed for a $9,000 AC & heating overhaul..
Our AC died yesterday..  for good..
As much as I want to yell, kick, throw things, curse the world...  I'm not..
I'm thankful.. Why? Because I have the means to replace the broken AC..
I have a house to put it in.. I'm lucky..

It wouldn't be so scary if we didn't sign on a $10,000 deck project a few days before the AC went out.
Im nervous.. but still... thankful..
It's all gonna be ok..
Deep breaths..
Grown up problems...

Things have just been extremely hectic around here. Im trying to keep my head up and stay positive..
The last 4 weeks have been.. interesting...
4 weeks ago, my husband was diagnosed with PTSD and anxiety disorder.. I'll always be there for him.. I've stuck around through a deployment, brain surgery, 4 moves, and I'll be here for him through this.. It tears me apart sometimes, but it's not about ME..
2 weeks ago, my father had a heart attack.. I would have stayed in VA and just dealt with it the way I did when he had his stroke, but he decided to bring my grandpa down from Charleston to watch his new kids.. THAT almost made ME have a heart attack.. I'll still never understand that decision.. I was worried sick, so I drove down to SC to make sure everything was ok..  Everybody else in my family runs for the hills when my dad enters the picture... I refuse to... I was nervous being around him, but I was more worried about grandpa than anything..  I did what I could to check on him.. I spoke with EVERYONE about his well-being.. I must have sounded like a damn detective.. lol... You could see it annoyed the hell out of my dad that I was more concerned about my grand dad... We haven't had a good relationship since 2011'ish..  I don't see it getting better, but I'm at peace with that. I've tried for YEARS .. You can only try for so long though.. Every time I got him into a good place, he destroyed it.. I would push him to find a stable home, make sure he had the furniture and food that he needed, get him to start taking care of himself a little better, and he would ruin it EVERY TIME by letting some woman take over his life.. He's better off alone.. I'm done trying to help  him though..
1 week ago, we started having problems with the AC...
Now, they're going to be cutting a hole in my ceiling, replacing some pipes, and then construction on the deck starts in September.. I need a minute.. lol!!

I'm trying to have faith..
Its all gonna work out for the best..
Everything WILL come together.