Sunday, September 15, 2013

Just some random thoughts.


There's one major plus about being adopted.
Freedom from certain things.
You don't feel like you need to BE your parents. Well, to me at least.
I feel like I was born with a certain degree of separation from my adoptive parents, and a WHOLE lot of separation from my birth parents. I've never felt a full connection to anybody. While it can be pretty lonely, you really get to know yourself.
This is how I feel -
Picture this.. There's a puzzle that's missing a piece. You find a piece that fits perfectly, but its from a different puzzle. The pattern isn't the same but it still fits and makes the puzzle whole.. That's how I feel.. Like that puzzle piece.
I fit in, but I don't at the same time.
I feel like an independent soul.

I don't look like anybody.. act like anybody.. I am me..
My parents have always said "You knew exactly who you were, at the age of 8..."
Why?
I didn't get my temper from my dad.. My brains from my mom...
Becky is Becky.
I don't feel like I need to live up to anybody... I don't feel afraid of turning into so-and-so..
I'm not following in anybody's footsteps, I'm blazing a whole new trail.
People look at me like "aww" when I say I'm adopted.. Why? Its never something to be sympathetic about.
I get "don't be like that.." when I say that I have no desire to meet anybody else from my birth family. I'm really OK.

1 comment:

  1. I love your way of looking at this! =) The idea that you're simply Becky, and you don't have to live up to anyone's expectations but your own, is great and empowering.

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